Hey friends. I was hanging out with one of my best friends the other night, and our conversations usually go from totally random to totally deep and introspective. That’s exactly what happened this time, and it’s one of the (many) reasons why I love her—she seems to always pull things out of me that wouldn’t normally go through my mind, and then when I say it out loud, it’s like total mind blown moment. Like, “whoa, Aly. Why didn’t you come to that realization before?!”
So, we were talking about life and people in it, and I said “you know, all I ever wished and prayed for was for him to see his own potential and how beautiful he is at his core. I wanted him to believe in himself as much as I believed in him, and to see his own worth. I think I will pray for him for the rest of my life, regardless of what happens.” My friend just looked at me and said “Alyssa, do you realize what you just said?” Of course I didn’t. “You just said what me, all of our friends wish and pray for YOU. That you see how beautiful your core is. Why don’t you pray that for yourself, too?” Why don’t I? It’s so much easier when I pray for other people than it is to pray for myself. When I help other people. When I try to encourage and lift others up. Why is it so dang hard for us to see our own worth and beauty in ourselves, but so easy to see it in others? I feel like this is an age-old question that I will never fully have the answer to. Ever since I was little, I’ve always been the helper, the picker-upper, the soother, the listener. I always took pride in that. When someone in the family was sick, I would make them tea, bring them soup, and clear my schedule to take care of them. It’s easier to believe in others, than it is to believe in ourselves. Our negative self-talk is damaging on SO many levels.
Truth is, people can tell us for days how worthy we are, but if we don’t feel it in our own hearts we’re never going to fully believe it. I don’t know the secret to believing it/feeling it, but I do know that, for me, it starts with identity. I know I’ve talked about this a lot lately, but it’s because I am so passionate about it and truly, truly believe in it. It is literally one of my top priorities lately in prayer, meditation and study. I can find confidence in who I am at my core, how I was created, and can accept myself. It’s a learning process, and I don’t know if there is anyone on the planet (well, maybe Oprah) who has achieved full, complete acceptance of themselves.
In order to understand who we are in Christ, we have to learn who He is. His attributes. What His incommunicable traits are, and what traits He passed onto us. Trust me, it’s hard! Okay, maybe it’s not that hard for some people…but, it is for me! When I want to do ALL THE THINGS, thinking I have unlimited time, I have to shake myself into reality and remind myself that I am only human. As much as I want to do it all, see it all, say it all, I simply can’t. And that’s okay. If you want to read a great book on learning about God’s attributes, check out my recommendation below. Read along with me!
May is Mental Health Awareness month, and I want to let you all know that if you’re struggling, reach out for help. Whether it’s a friend, family member, teacher, neighbor, co-worker, therapist, pastor, whoever…there is power in asking for help. It’s a sign of strength and courage. You don’t have to go it alone. Oh, how I wish I could throw my arms around each one you and tell you that you are loved and cared for! Want to shoot me a message? Do it! firstname.lastname@example.org
I just want to encourage you all to take a minute to tell yourself you’re worthy and your past doesn’t define YOU or your future, unless you let it. When you finally learn who you truly are and what you’re truly capable of, you can be unstoppable. Let’s be unstoppable together.
What I’m listening to:
“Lebanon,” J.S. Ondara
“More Hearts Than Mine,” Ingrid Andress
“Dreamers,” Jack Savoretti
“A Letter To My Mama,” Vince Gill (have a Kleenex for this one)
What I’m reading:
In His Image, by Jen Wilkins (amazing book!!)